Positives, negatives and everything in between fickraken

Fick: The Bulls and the Heat are playing, but my daughter is asleep so I have a chance to play Symphonia. Instead of watching the first or playing the second, I am here. I can't make up my mind!

Fick: I've been home alone a lot recently and it's been somewhat lonely around here.

Pos: I've been watching an LP of Catherine to keep myself occupied. I've got say that it's an pretty amazing game with symbolism that is both hilarious as it is frightening.

Taiyz wrote:

I was so tempted to moderate your username to Suikiwiden and make you think that you had lost your mind, but it would probably cause problems with you signing in which wouldn't be fun.

Alternately I guess I could've edited like, all the posts, avatars and signatures on this page into pictures of kiwis, but again, I'm too lazy to go about undoing it all.

Just wanted you to know that I care. I guess. Kiwis.

I know it's weird of me to say, but I'm honored by your consideration to do so. Me seeing nothing but kiwis everywhere would've actually been epic.

This election campaign just got real interesting. After recently denying rumors than he would go in politics, Quebecor's CEO Pierre-Karl Péladeau as announced he will run for the parti québécois in the riding of Saint-Jérôme in the incoming election.

Quebecor owns, among others, the Sun newpapers. Yup, the newpaper chain that most harshly criticise Québec is owned by a separatist!


Mon adhésion au Parti québécois est une adhésion à mes valeurs les plus profondes et les plus intimes, c'est-à-dire faire du Québec un pays. - Pierre-Karl Péladeau

Pos:

One of my friends had an awesome idea today.

We're probably going to put it into motion one day as well. The general idea is to gather a group of people, and then choose someone who is not in that group. And mess with him/ her all day by whispering "wake up" in his or her ear every now and again.

For a full day.

Neg:

My voice is gone.

And my throat hurts.

I hope I can talk again tomorrow...

Slivendiferious wrote:

Thanks

Your welcome and good luck with that ideal given in truth by wispering in any guy ear despite what is said will definitely wake something up due to their hormones.About your throat though given you believe it without having any form of doubt then it will come fruition forementioned equates faith especially when saying tommorrow

Been checking back here and there to see if Sliv ever sent the PM. It's fine if you moved on and lost the motivation to send it for whatever reason, but otherwise I'm certainly still interested in reading.

Pos: Suikiwiden is a good name.
Pos: Watching LPs on Youtube.

Dr. Casey, The Extraordinaire wrote:

Pos: Suikiwiden is a good name.

Oh you and yer impeccable tastes with stuff, Dr. Casey~

The temptation fer a name change is great within me now!

Dr. Casey, LP Enthusiast wrote:

Pos: Watching LPs on Youtube

You too, eh?

What games have ya been followin'?

Neg: 4am, sleepless and hungry

Fick: I changed from SO1 to SO2 on Universe

Neg: Sick.
Pos: Getting better.
Pos: Been playing ToSC with my love.

Dr. Casey wrote:

Pos: Suikiwiden is a good name.

Suikiwi 4ever.



Neg: I made the mistake of counting how many months it will have been since September without even realizing I was doing it, and that completely ruined my mood yesterday. Like, REALLY ruined it.

Neg: 7 months. It will have been 7 months at least by April and that may not even be the end of it. 7 f***ing months of nothing but forced self-sacrifice.

Neg: Talking with my best friend didn't even help.

Neg: falling asleep was nearly impossible.

Neg: Nightmares.

Neg: There's a whole f***ing world out there but the world keeps telling me to get back in my cage.

Fick: I didn't even want to get up this morning, but well... here I am.

*drags you on a magic carpet ride to cheer you up*

You will get out of your cage eventually  In some cases, it just takes time. It may not be fair, but keep on fighting, okay?

Yeah what Moony said, Tenshi! It won't always be miserable! Just stay hang in there a lil longer, I know you can do it !

Neg: Had a really nice dream where somethin' I've been lookin' forward to potentially happening did, but alas I woke up and all my hope was dashed.

Sigh.

Fick: There was also a dream where a huge number of people came to a birthday party of mine. People I ain't seen in YEARS. It was weird.

Pos: To distract myself I've been playing The Stick of Truth . The humor is pure gold.

The mayor tells you of how South Park has gotten a bad reputation as of late for being very dangerous. So to counteract the problem, she proposes in the form of a quest to fight and beat up the dirty hobos so the town will garner positive rep for being a safe place again.

>.>;

Pos: Gundam Build Fighters

Fick:

My throat is sore and as a result my voice is cracking in really weird ways. For a large part of the day these days I don't have a voice at all! I type more than I speak. xD
What folly.

Fick:

I had to hand in a form five times today to apply for a scholarship.

Fick:

I talked with a girl today. A girl I was crushing on pretty hard three years ago. It was nice. Even if it only lasted for 2 minutes or so.
I realized once again that she is not some kind of goddess incarnate but a human just like all of us. It felt like a huge relief, like a pat on the shoulder: that talking with people you barely know but think are awesome isn't scary at all; and that talking to people you want to impress shouldn't be any harder than talking with your friends.

Her voice though. Her voice is unlike any I've heard before. In a word, it is refreshing. And I mean that in a good way. The best description I've been able to come up with isn't as flattering however, but I mean well. Her voice is like a torrent of ice cold arctic water gushing through the himalayas, mixed with copious amounts of lime. It freezes all of your nerves for just a millisecond, but then you get used to it and it seems fine.
Look at that, accidental poetry. Don't try to read it as poetry, it doesn't work.

I met her through chance today, not sure if I'll ever meet her again.

Fick:

While petting a random cat today, I started to ponder what it would be like if humans were more like cats. Cats see such wonder in the world. They can show so much kindness to a passerby and blatently ignore their familiar humans all the same. Cats don't care what you think of them, they are independant and live their own lives. I think people could learn a lot of cats; of their confidence, of their kindness, of their brevity, of their laziness and of their faith in humans.

Fick:

I've been writing some fiction in the train to and from my university.
I think I'm finally getting somewhere. John Richard "R" Reynolds is starting to take shape.

I pet all the stray cats that live on my street.

The cat in question.

@Moonie and Suikiwi: thanks you two. I've been constantly telling myself I have to keep fighting, so other people repeating that same thing does help reinforce it.

It seems like I feel more and more detached from my surroundings every day though, and that scares me. That's the sort of thing I've been trying to prevent.

Something came to mind though that made me laugh and strangely made me feel a little better about my situation even if it's a little sad.

It's like I'm living in some oldschool RPG (think Dragon Quest)

"Please, thou must help us!"
[  ]Yes
[>]Sorry, got an entire freaking world to save and it's far more important than your lost dog.

"But thou must!"

"Please, thou must help us!"
[  ]Yes
[>]Sorry, got an entire freaking world to save and it's far more important than your lost dog.

"But thou must!"

"Please, thou must help us!"
[>]Yes
[  ]Sorry, got an entire freaking world to save and it's far more important than your lost dog.

And then the dog gets lost again 5 minutes after I return with it.

Damn those boxes with text in them! If only they didn't halt movement I could simply walk away! *shakes fist*

^ Glad to help!

Neg: Oh god... I found my old Gaia Online profile from YEARS ago; it's cringeworthy to hell and back. I'm gutting that embarrassment as soon as possible tomorrow. I'm hoping I can still access that monstrosity...

Ain't no way in hell would I want anyone looking at that. So much stupid crap from my early HS years. I hate how I was back then. Not to mention the old OCs I made and rps I did like 8-10 years ago... I had completely forgotten about my OCs and rp ventures too. D:

Neg: Essays. PHILOSOPHY ESSAYS

Pos: I'm enjoying ToS...surprisingly :O
Pos: SPURINNNNGGGG is STAHTING

neg: last night i scared myself into thinking i had TSS which is potentially fatal and i didn't get a wink of sleep ha ha ha hahhhhh
fick: it does not help that i have a lot of midterms this week and i really need to spend my sleep and study time wisely
which begs the question why do i always visit reservia at 3am on busy school nights
hmm

Weird: I was like --- A new member has a name that kind of make me think it's Ms. Suiky. Then, I realized that it was her.

Pos: it's actually been in the 30s and 40s for the past few days and the mountains of snow are finally shrinking.

Neg: it's dripping off the roof and refreezing on the driveway. If this doesn't clear up there will be trouble when the 1/8 Colette figure ships out near the end of the month. It's not going to fit in the mailbox so they'll need to climb up the icy driveway - that practically goes straight up I might add - and leave it at the door. I would attack the ice with an ice chipper but that would be futile. It's dripping from the roof nonstop, which will simply recreate any ice I chip away.

Pos: decided to watch Baccano! for a change of pace because I'm starting to lose the enjoyment out of everything else I do to pass the time. It sort of worked. The act of just being like "f*** it I want to watch this, I've been meaning to watch it for months." helped a little bit to lessen the feeling I've been getting that I'm powerless to change anything. Really wish the anime didn't jump around so much though, that makes my head hurt.

Neg: Once I was done with Baccano! for the evening I still wasn't in the mood for anything else. Even picking up and playing Bravely Default seemed like going through the motions.

Fick/Neg: I think maybe I'm burning myself out again. Maybe that's the problem. Unfortunately this time I feel it's even more impossible to take a vacation and just get away from everything right now.

Dafuq: I wake up at 9:30 (which is like the crack of dawn for me) to this:

I stirred to wakefulness at the sound of my cat chirping and loud pecking sounds. In my half asleep stupor, I had no idea wtf was going on till I sat up. And that is the site I see! A mexican standoff between my excited cat and some random bluebird. It was like looking at a western - except with animals. The bluebird for whatever reason, continued its actions and the pecking noises began yet again. It then clicked with me that this insane blueblird was pecking furiously at the window. Pretty sure my cat wasn't the reason behind it and this bird was weirddddd. It kept continuing onward for like an hour and a half. It was too random and hilarious to be annoyed at tbh.

I mean look at this lil guy!

You can just see the crazed look in his beady lil eyes!

I even closed the blinds and even that didn't stop him...

Harbinger wrote:

Weird: I was like --- A new member has a name that kind of make me think it's Ms. Suiky. Then, I realized that it was her.

I dunno why, but I'm linking you this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GsqUZkmO-zk

Tenshigami wrote:

Pos: it's actually been in the 30s and 40s for the past few days and the mountains of snow are finally shrinking.

It's like 67 today and it'll be 70 tomorrow here.

My god, we're actually getting a reprieve!

Pos: Spring Break.

Neg: Homework over Spring Break.