Positives, negatives and everything in between fickraken

Thanks for your encouragements, Tenshi. That song text is very nice too! I really hope you'll recieve those packages soon :[

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Pos: Got a nice compliment.

Pos: Productive day.

Fick: Work tomorrow.

Harbinger wrote:

What the hell?

That thing is creepy as hell!

Falcom wrote:

McDicks has reached a new low.
Its as if the grudge merged with a lego block and voila.

Tenshigami wrote:

Well I know what I'm thinking - that is totally haunting my nightmares tonight. EEEEUUUUGH D:

Moontoon wrote:

Neg: Dat McDonalds box.

Bahahahahaha! Oh you guys! xD

Bo Staff Katana wrote:

Neg: Had my wisdom teeth removed last Tuesday. The pain is still preventing me from sleeping.

Well this has me a bit worried. I didn't know the pain could get that bad. O_O

Tenshigami wrote:

God dammit now my mood is ruined and everything sucks again.

Tenshi Tenshi Tenshi Tenshi Tenshi Tenshi Tenshi Tenshi!

You gotta fight that urge to descend into a negative mood so easily! At least unlike a lot of things in life, those can be replaced. :O

Don't let that hard earned happiness over the weekend be for nothing!

Neg: Didn't get much sleep again and I think I feel the onset of another fatigue headache.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

Neg:
>.>

<.<

I'm having withdrawals from not speaking with a certain someone in awhile. D:

Thanks Moonie. I wasn't sure i wanted to post all that on the previous page but I went ahead with it anyway. Something I used to tell myself all the time also comes to mind now. "'To err is human', therefore the fact I tend to make more mistakes than others only makes me more human, and that's nothing to be ashamed about."

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Neg: back from the post office - no packages, but they'll supposedly track them down for us. It's been volunteer mailmen each day for our route for a while now though which scares me. Trying to be optimistic, but probably screwed.

Fick: Still upset about the packages but no longer in I HATE EVERYTHING mode.

Tenshigami wrote:

Thanks Moonie. I wasn't sure i wanted to post all that on the previous page but I went ahead with it anyway. Something I used to tell myself all the time also comes to mind now. "'To err is human', therefore the fact I tend to make more mistakes than others only makes me more human, and that's nothing to be ashamed about."

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Neg: back from the post office - no packages, but they'll supposedly track them down for us. It's been volunteer mailmen each day for our route for a while now though which scares me. Trying to be optimistic, but probably screwed.

Fick: Still upset about the packages but no longer in I HATE EVERYTHING mode.

Thats really weird, are you sure someone in your house doesnt have it or hiding the package? Or any of your neighbors signed for it? Maybe he left the notice at the wrong door, Those volunteer mail men fail, I had different bad experiences with the post office but not like this.

No one's hiding the packages, it's just me and my parents in the house and one of the missing packages was for my mother.

Also if there ever was a note it should have been in the mailbox. The day the tracking says a note was left, one of my OTHER packages *was* delivered - jammed into the mailbox where it barely fit like a square peg in a round hole. Almost had to cut into it to get if out. (One package last October I *did* have to cut into. Someone's either lazy or an idiot.)

Pos: That new banner. My favorite thing about it is the Shing and Kohak picture.

I hope things work out, Tenshi - I've had enough things misdelivered or go missing that I now get paranoid when waiting for something especially important to be mailed to me.

~Dr. Casey~ wrote:

Pos:That new banner like omg! Mah favorite thing bout dat is teh Shing and Kohak pic! I get like teh most romantic vibes ever from it!~ 11/10

Ditto on this! It's like I could look at it forever or somethin'!

I've been pretty out of touch in terms of the recent Tales of games, so, I have no idea who any of the characters above me are, but they are pretty'ish, so I like the banner as well.

Pos: Saw an old friend who joined me and some of my other friends to go see Maleficent.
Frick: Movie was stupid, but I had loads of fun. Mostly laughing at that guy from District 9 they got to play the king.
Pos: Went home and saw on my subscriptions this guy who uploads songs of his once every blue moon uploaded something TODAY. That made me smile. https://youtu.be/sKkSbtfVcBQ

Pos/neg: Taking care of a 7 weeks old puppy for my uncle until sunday... I want to sleep...

Dr. Casey wrote:

Suikiwiden wrote:

~Dr. Casey~ wrote:

Pos:That new banner like omg! Mah favorite thing bout dat is teh Shing and Kohak pic! I get like teh most romantic vibes ever from it!~ 11/10

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Bahaha Casey can't hide anything from you, Sui. You read him like a book.

Pos/Fick: So, like, I totally had the weirdest dreams last night. My first one consisted of me traveling with an old friend of mine and their family cross country heading out west. I remember being incredibly hella excited at the fact I was traveling to places I had yet to visit irl and once we had reached Texas, I was all like "HELL YES! I'm so far west from home it's insane!" and during my dream, I remember I didn't have a problem with the fact that I still didn't know why I was traveling out west to begin with. Logic in dreams is a funny thing, isn't it?

Anyway, in my second dream I found myself playing some unrecognizable MMO or somethin' and I was controllin' some kind of weird helicopter contraption! I think the goal I was trying to reach was to be able to land the wobbly machine onto a sturdy platform but sadly I couldn't find anything suitable. Why I was controlling a helicopter and why I was trying to land it I'll never know; I just was. o_O

All the while, I was like really really really determined and engrossed with getting this thing on solid ground, that it took me a second to realize I had gotten an ingame message! From Slivster no less! Why Sliv was playing such a weird and confusing game is somethin' I'll prolly never understand (maybe he would know??? xD). I recall feeling beside myself with a surge of joy at reading his greeting! The welcomed presence of familiarity while being amidst a very troubling landscape being a great relief upon my mind at the stress of randomly being a pilot! And just as I was about to type out a response, I was yanked from the dream world and promptly brought back to the real world by my father randomly talking (rather animatedly no less!) outside on the phone! -_-

The first thing that came across my mind was me thinking to myself: "Really? You just had to wake me up at that instant in the most arbitrary of ways now of all times, life?!"

He rarely if ever talks on the phone outside so I'm fairly convinced life was out to mess with me, guys. :/

Edit: Just logged on FB and a friend of mine posted (literally the first thing I see) this gem. Life is really trying to tell me something today. o_O

Tenshigami wrote:

Dr. Casey wrote:

Suikiwiden wrote:

~Dr. Casey~ wrote:

Pos:That new banner like omg! Mah favorite thing bout dat is teh Shing and Kohak pic! I get like teh most romantic vibes ever from it!~ 11/10

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Bahaha Casey can't hide anything from you, Sui. You read him like a book.

Oh good, that microchip I implanted within his brain is working....

Imeanwut?

Of course dreams are illogical. Dreams are dreams because they allow us to escape from the confines of reality. Nightmares of course occur when this phenomenon just does not go our way.

Also - Wow. Wish I had dreams I could describe. I think I've said this before at some point between forum wipes, but I just... don't really dream anymore. Doesn't bother me for the most part, but every time someone talks about having a dream, that's when it kind of does start bothering me because then I'm reminded.
Even when I get plenty of sleep, I'm out like a light, sleep like a log (I can sleep straight through massive T-storms), and then wake up when the alarm goes off, without so much as the slightest sign of having a dream. Usually even if you forget the contents of the dream you remember having had one when you wake up, right? I don't even get that anymore.

I wish I knew what the problem is. I've tried getting more sleep but all that does is make me wake up like an hour or two before the alarm.

Pos: Awesome weather!

Fick: wtf happened to the quote in my sig? Sliv, was this your doing? I know it was from crappy subs but >_>

EDIT: huh when I go to edit my sig, the quote is still there. Wtf is going on.

EDIT EDIT: nevermind found my answer.

Neg: why am I so goddamn shy when it comes to IMs (AIM, Skype, Steam). I just kinda sit there fighting against the urge to not bother people and usually lose...

Nope, wasn't me Tenshi =)

I don't have any sig editing priviliges as far as I know.

Fick: I feel like a wreck. Which is kind of ironic.

Neg: Still need to clean my stuff

Pos: Board game prototype is coming along nicely! Almost done =D

negative: I forgot to sign in here because I was busy
mystifying: the banner is new

Pos: did a Google hangout with some friends last night and was actually able to be talkative for once!

Neg: one friend on the hangout said something that got me to admit that I still don't have my drivers license and that's got me massively depressed now. All I ever seem to do is hit a wall in that regard, and nobody around me in a position to help seems to even want to...

I'm so sick of feeling like I'm living life in a cage with that being my only ticket out the door.

It's not like a driver licence is really necessary, I have mine for about 7 years now and I rarelly drive a car, only if I'm really lazy or if I don't have the money for the bus.

Well y'see Arn the situation really differs from person to person. I can't speak for Tenshi but some people grow tired of being so dependent on others to get them around and it can be rather embarrassing at times when others broach the subject around you.

Not only that but you gotta factor in where someone might live. Like for me, getting a license is pretty necessary since I live in a rural area with everything being spread out and public transportation is pretty limited. I wanna be able to do the things I need to do without someone else having to take time out their day to get me around. I wanna be able to drive 3 hours down to North Carolina to see my sister and tbh, if I had someone important visiting me, being ferried around by my old man is the last thing I'd want. >.>

And hey Tenshi, have you ever taken a driving course?

Pos: board game works like a charm!

@Arn Well the problem is, you kinda need to have a destination in mind when going by bus or other public transportation. I don't really have anywhere I would go by bus - I don't even have any local friends to visit or anything. Also I'd have to figure out bus routes in order to get anywhere.

It really doesn't help how the conversation went either...

"*jokingly* You're gonna drive down to Tennessee and visit [good friend I really get along well with], right?"
*long silence*
"...I totally would if I could, but I still don't have a driver's license."

It also doesn't help that my best friend also lives in Tennessee so I have even more reason to want to visit - though it'd be a long enough drive I'd probably be better off flying out anyway.

@Sui I've brought it up but nobody's ever offered to take me where I'd need to go for lessons. Part of it I suppose is that everyone's so goddamn busy, including me. Even when I'm not, I go over to my dad and see he's busy working so I just don't even bother. I can't ask my mom to help as she can't really go anywhere still. She's still slowly regaining her ability to walk.

Another part of it is... well, I don't know. I can voice my distress to you guys just fine. (And once again I apologize for constantly coming to this thread and whining.) But when it comes to voicing it to my parents I can't seem to articulate it in a way that gets them to understand how soul-shatteringly unhappy I often feel.

Oh I got ya'll, should've prhased that a little less rarsh.

It's ok Arn. I get what you're saying because I have friends out on the east coast that for the most part don't drive and even take the subway to visit each other across states. Over here in MN a car is pretty much a necessity. I envy them a little...

Pos: After hearing it for the first time yesterday and after practicing 9 million times, I've gotten pretty damn good at singing "Nothing Can Change This Love" by Sam Cooke. I'm actually pretty impressed with how well I can hit his pitch. My voice is somewhat lower than most other chicks which inhibits me with a lot of songs sadly yet I can sing 50+ year old blues/soul songs better than most other women can. I'm weird, what can I say?

That 5 years of chorus never really left me and prolly never will! Now if only I could master "Rolling in the Deep"....

Pos: I'll be listening to other Same Cooke hits today and see what I can do with those too.