Positives, negatives and everything in between fickraken

Falcom wrote:

DOES ANYONE HERE HAVE A GOOD GHOST STORY?!
I am in need of one, gonna have a night out with my cousins and we decided to have some exchange some good ghost stories.... sooo anyone? :D

Will have sent a PM later today.

It's not a "ghost story" per se, but pretty close.

@Harbs: Cheers mate!

Neg: Pollen is raping my world as well. Congested sinuses mainly, along with random headaches due to the congestion. Granted, my allergy issues are no where near as bad as one of the girls I work with, her allergies completely destroy her world.
Maybe I should take a pic of the top of one of our airplanes tonight. The normally white planes are now yellowish-green due to all the pollen floating around.

Neg: Hit my heel on a metal set of stairs at work, and now it is sore and swollen.

Pos: These two items came yesterday:



Pos: Also got the last few items to finish an r/c truck I had laying around for a while. Now I just have to finish a few random details (motor programming and wire routing), then work on some bodies for it.

Venom wrote:

Maybe I should take a pic of the top of one of our airplanes tonight. The normally white planes are now yellowish-green due to all the pollen floating around.

I'd love to see that. xD

Venom wrote:

Neg: Hit my heel on a metal set of stairs at work, and now it is sore and swollen.

I hope walkin' ain't too bad fer ya.

Suikiwiden wrote:

I'd love to see that. xD

If I don't forget I will lol

Suikiwiden wrote:

I hope walkin' ain't too bad fer ya.

Eh, it hurts, but I can get around. Thanks

@Sliv:

Thxies ~ <3

Falcom wrote:

@Sliv:

Thxies ~ <3

Lemme guess, he regaled with you an amazing story of swashbuckling proportions?! Surely it was the infamous ghost pirate story of Sasquatch Joe and the twelve holy bell peppers?! It's helluva story rife with many a food eating contest and dangerous battles on the Persian Gulf.


Ahhh, just thinking about that story gets my blood pumpin'! Apparently it's one of Dr. Casey's all time favorites~

Pollen madness:

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Neg: Slight burns on my fingers. I absentmindedly picked up a pot from a fire, and took a long while to notice that it was burning into my fingers.

@Sui: Errr no? Though now I'm interested in that story too.

Speaking of the Doc, Sui:

Dr. Casey wrote:

I promise to vote Kohak in 2014!

#neverforget

Can't believe it's been 3 years since.

Neg: Cough and colds during finals and project time. Dammit body.

Get well soon.

School's over here in just 2 more weeks.... must persevere.

Neg: I gotta stop flying through Wrath of The Lich King content whilst listening to the music in zones. The nostalgia is powerful. Get so bummed when I realize it's been 6-7 years now. I don't think WoW will ever captivate me on the same levels that Northrend did.

Warlords of Draenor is alright but lore-wise man is it boring. #loreisimportant

EDIT: Holy f*** this hits close to home. Literally. Born and raised in that area and went to this 7-Eleven a LOT as a kid. That level of stuff NEVER happens there. Hope the officer makes it.

http://www.wbaltv.com/news/Anne-Arundel-County-police-officer-shot/32295126

Venom wrote:

Pollen madness:

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Okay wow, yeah that's insane lol

Falcom wrote:

Get well soon.

School's over here in just 2 more weeks.... must persevere.

Same here. On the 24th at 11:30AM I'm done

I signed up for summer classes tough so the break will be short lived

NEG: Things aren't looking good for my uncle.

Fick. The book review I have to write for history has reached five pages, with six being the minimum. I so far only wrote the plot and character summaries but now I'll attempt the other stuff starting tomorrow. I chose Othello for the book, and I have to explain how accurate the story and characters are to history and stuff. Not looking forward to that. Can't wait until I'm done with this class.

Pos: For the last week or so I've been on an 50s and 60s song binge. Cannot stop singing this one. Modern pop songs are so overrated.

Tenshigami wrote:

NEG: Things aren't looking good for my uncle.

I'm sorry your uncle isn't doing so well. Just know he's in my thoughts, Tenshi.

Double post because omfg.

Neg: I have to work today and the work I do has to do with archiving historical info. That means I need to be at the top of my game in concentration for 6 hours. Since the shit I'm doing will have people looking at it in the future for referencing I can't afford to screw things up. 

What I don't need is to be woken up at 6 something by a stupid text simply saying 'hey!!'. If I tell you the night before that I've got work the following day (even mentioned the hours!) then don't text me at some moronic hour. Just because you're a landscaper on the west coast that needs to be up before 4:30 doesn't mean the rest of the world will be.

I try to be considerate with others but I've got my limits when it has to do with having basic forethought.

I've been gone awhile again because life just keeps it comin' in 2015, non-stop rollercoster yee-haw

Fick: Mom confronted me about my sexuality after vaguely overhearing me and my sister talking about my crush (which I think I mentioned awhile back as a big pos in here), so I made the decision to come out to my parents as bi, my siblings were there, everything was as comfortable as it could be, I wrote out a thing to read to keep my thoughts together and i read it all out. Apparently it was good my brother-in-law liked it but...

Neg: My parents did not take it well, none of the worst case scenarios happened, I wasn't disowned, I'm not dead, and I wasn't thrown out, I'm actually pretty happy with the outcome and I'm glad I'm not in the closet anymore. However, my mom needs a lot of time, she has no idea about this stuff and the only way she informs herself is by looking up the bad things.

She thinks she can discourage me from being the way I am so she has boosted up her insults and told me about the terrible things that happen to people that aren't straight. I know she just needs time, I am trying my best to give her the love and patience she needs to get through this, its the right thing to do. She can be trying though, its an unendingly bad thing to her and she keeps bringing it up in a negative light and I keep meeting her with as much positivity and understanding as I can muster. I've slipped and become a bit overbearing I know. I keep telling her no matter how much negativity she throws at me the love she raised me with is stronger than that and its stronger than anything that life can throw at me, that there's a place for her in my life always, and that I know I'm doing the right thing based on how she raised me even if right now she doesn't understand that its what she'd want of me.

My dad doesn't talk about it, which is how he handles most things, he bottles it up, he took it hard I can see it in his eyes, I saw it in his eyes when I told him, and everytime I go in for a hug or talk to him now. He isn't talking to anyone about it and both of them feel like its a shameful thing that the extended family shouldn't know about.

slight Neg mostly Pos: My sister also feels its a bit embarrassing but she has done her very best, she may not want to tell people, and she's right its my right to do so and there's really no reason too its just who I am no big deal, she hasn't treated me at all differently and she talks about my relationships openly (even though she does try her hardest to get me to like girls, she really does hope I end up with one and that's really up to life really not anything else, it hurts but other than that I know she's trying) My siblings have all been a godsend, very helpful, very understanding, they may not get it, but they are there for me.

Neg: Last week i finally told my crush how I felt and he felt nothing, he wants to be friends (which is apparently the exception, apparently its because I'm kind that he's not cutting me off completely with no explanation which is apparently what he "usually does" I know he's had a past heartbreak but jeez) It was absolutely crushing for me (no pun intended). This is the first time in my life I let my walls down as cliche as it sounds I went through something amazing, and I have no regrets about the path I took. But it hurt. But I really feel like I lived, for the first time. I took some of the biggest risks I've ever taken and become a better person along the way. I did get fanciful, I really did, for once, believe in my heart that it could work, that there was a chance, and I don't regret that, but the fall was and is hard. I don't blame him for anything of course, its just how things go. What I felt and feel is something more than I could describe or could have imagined before, I'm certain this was special it's just not meant to be. He really does seem to want to remain friends, right now we're taking space. He just wanted a little space so the awkwardness of the situation could dissipate, but I told him I'd come to him when I'm ready to see if he is, because its going to take me awhile to consider if I can truly be friends with him. I enjoyed our time together more than anything, but I won't go back to him unless I can really actually move on, turn the way I care about him into a different form. I don't want to make him uncomfortable, he's sensitive with these things. I also need to make sure it won't hurt too much. If I can't be solely friendly with him without some kind of pain I may just tell him that and do what I need to do, but I won't just disappear without telling him what's up. This turned a little self-reflectie I apologise!

SORRY FOR THE LITERAL ESSAYS. TL;DR Shiv is on an adventure.

EDIT: oh yeah, Neg: Finals period, and I need to rock all of them or else it could mean bad things for me, which is giving me anxiety, but I have time and I know I can work hard and pull through I've really pulled myself up this year.

You are strong Shiv.

I admire your strength and courage.

I think that, above all else, your parents want what's best for you; and deeply care for you.
I think they're just worried about both your physical and mental health and a little sad that there's a realistic chance they won't be having any grandchildren through you ;)

About your crush shiv, if it was not meant to be, don't be afraid to let it go. You're young, and I'm certain that as long as you stay true to who you are, you'll meet someone who's even more amazing.

Good luck!

ShivKH wrote:

SORRY FOR THE LITERAL ESSAYS. TL;DR Shiv is on an adventure.

Naw it's ok. Glad to hear from you, and I can only imagine how tough all that was. Internet high five, man! If you have any doubts left about yourself, just remember that YOU'RE AWESOME!

Slivendiferious wrote:

About your crush shiv, if it was not meant to be, don't be afraid to let it go.

So much this! I have a friend who has yet to learn to completely let go of a bad experience and all that's doing is holding him back even AFTER meeting someone more amazing.


"...if you can endure that pain and walk away from it, you'll find that you now have a heart strong enough to overcome any obstacle. Yeah, a heart made Fullmetal."

- Edward Elric, Fullmetal Alchemist

Hey guys, sorry for the double post.

NEG: I've been hesitant to post this, and I don't want to type up everything that's going on or this post will be ridiculously long and depressing and nobody wants to read that sh**.

All I'm going to say is that as some of my previous posts indicated, my uncle isn't doing well, and the whole on-going situation is really, really horrible.

I'm not doing ok.

My whole family isn't doing ok.

I'm just trying to make it through the rest of my work week before I completely shut down. (TGIF, right?)

I feel so powerless right now.

Sorry, I didn't want to dump this on you guys, but I don't want to bottle it all in, either.

Shiv, I just wanna praise you on how courageous you were. Admitting your sexual orientation is a nervous-wracking experience regardless of outcome. Here's to hoping your parents ease into the news over time.

Tenshi, don't worry about expressing the troubles in your life as that's what this thread is for. It's always better to let it out than letting it stew over time.

Fick. I just finished Madoka the Movie 3: Rebellion...what the heck did I just watch. That ending came out of nowhere and made no sense. I have no idea how they can continue the series after that, or if I want to see it continue.

Pos: I discovered Haruhi Suzumiya and I'm loving that manga.

Ok, I'm home from work now, and things have changed a bit to maybe sorta being better but I'm not sure whether I should feel any better about it.

Suikiwiden wrote:

Tenshi, don't worry about expressing the troubles in your life as that's what this thread is for. It's always better to let it out than letting it stew over time.

I know, I just didn't want to write out like several long paragraphs about all this because it was just that dire and I didn't want be a huge downer on everybody.

The situation has changed somewhat (arguably) for the better since I wrote that this morning so I think I can go over things somewhat. Let's see what I can do in just giving the "short version". I'll try to stick to the simple facts of what I know.

My uncle is in poor health, and he's been on kidney dialysis for a number of years.

Two weeks ago we got a call that he had a stroke (which I remember saying in a post at that time) and it's just been downhill from there. He's since had at least one or two more, and as of the middle of this week this is what we knew:

He's pretty much completely paralyzed. Possibly permanently.

He couldn't talk and was completely incapable of communicating with doctors.

His throat is so constricted that he is on a liquid diet and he may need a feeding tube for the rest of his life.

No one officially has power of attorney over him, but given the situation they decided to give it to my mother anyway.

As of yesterday (and what I knew when I made my post this morning) my uncle was completely incapacitated, and my mother got "the call", where she was asked to make the one decision she was hoping not to make. She decided to not continue his dialysis so that he could peacefully pass in a few weeks time. (She was told it would be like "going to sleep".)

Sometime today, she got another call that he was conscious and able to communicate in some way that yes, he wanted to continue dialysis (I do not know if this was vocally). My mother agreed.

He is not expected to live all that much longer either way, and if he does he probably will be miserable, but I do think my mother made the right decision today. I guess it depends on which you feel would weigh on your conscience more though - your brother being miserable for the rest of his life, or going against his wishes and ending it.